A Side of Relish

 It is curious what a difference a week can make. Like the week after your period. Or a week of sobriety after a festival. One in which friends soothe the ache in your heart just be being in the same room. When your body begins to communicate in lockstep with your brain and human feelings turn from despair to hope. 

I will savor the hope and relish in the despair, because both are my inalienable rights. Only I possess them and only I can take them away and, despite the inherent fraction of pain they will inevitably cause, I think that's pretty damn cool. Ya know?



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